And it always feels weird to say - like it's a hobby or something.
But God has been growing my heart in this area.
So I waited for opportunity to get involved - more than just send money, exchange letters and pray. I wanted to get right into someone's life. Make contact. Get personal. And, I wanted my children to be involved to; to want to help and serve.
Then it happened. A local community outreach program offered us a serving spot that the kids and I were excited to jump at. We'd be the only people in the 'office' where patrons could come and receive food, blankets, toiletries, etc. The kids were excited. I was too.
And I was terrified.
This could hurt.
Am I really chasing after one-sided relationships here?
Will I be taken advantage of emotionally?
...I'm not sure I can give that much of me...
And I'm faced with letting go. And suddenly it's not about outreach, but all relationships. All the people I expect to somehow fill a need they were never built for.
Parenting my kids is about their training, not my convenience.
I expect my husband, parents, family, friends, pastor and neighbors to somehow meet each need and want. Why?
Time to open hands and release the grip on what I think I need.
But I clench, Resent invisibility. What about me?
And I see the training; the triangle.
Invest in another - meet their needs.
My needs will be filled by Christ; not another.
And hopefully the triangle completes
with their turning to Christ.
and it's opposite
of anything I'd have thought up
... sounds right to me.