Paper piles seem to birth new paper piles, and I’m sure my list of lists is buried under one of them. The paper jungle that is my office has oozed onto my kitchen counters. I stuff piles into drawers just so I can see countertop and have phony peace…
Ever feel like you’re juggling at an ever increasing pace and that you’re one ball away from having it all fall apart? What about feeling like, if you just get organized then you can really start serving God?
It hit me this morning that I need God’s help with everything. -Everything. What on this earth makes me think that I can get it right and then come to God as presentable?! If I just get organized enough, just manage my household properly, just get diligent enough, and just obey enough, then I can REALLY serve powerfully. That load gets heavy fast.
“God help me!! I can’t do it! I can’t even get close!”
It’s becoming clearer to me that it may boil down to legalism, which boils down to lack of faith. If I believe I can obey enough or be good enough (which, of course, is never worded so obviously in my thoughts), I don’t need Christ. If I believe in myself, I reject Christ. Do I believe God’s Word or not? His word says
“…apart from me you can do nothing. No one can please God except through faith”
”For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God” Ephesians 2:8
”And if by grace, then it is no longer by works; if it were, grace would no longer “be grace. Romans 11:6
“But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.”
If I believe His Word, then I need to live like it. For me right now, this means I must dedicate these projects to God, ask for his help, and then receive it. He will give what I need.
For He Gives Me
plans I must make wisdom
writing I need to do words and guidance
parenting wisdom, guidance and a gentle heart
leading peace and humility
managing my household clear mind, discernment
my messy office I don’t know yet – I hope peace, clear mind, ability
“Lord, you are maker of all and you are bigger than my inability. You are abundantly able. I give you my mess, my clutter, my disorganization – thank you for bearing this burden. I pray that you would help me to do these things – give me the strength, wisdom and guidance I need to do these for you glory. In Jesus name.”